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cousel...."when rape is inevitable--relax and enjoy it." To cut the story short Id began to do just that and it has worked wonders in my inner understanding, peace of mind and acceptance by others.

I came to see that the presence of a feminine side to my personality was not necessarily in conflict with my own picture of masculinity, I can and do hold my own in masculine behaviour with any of them within the limits of my physical ability. (I won letters in track in high school and cross-country in college and this last is no sport for a "girl").

At the same time here is Virginia, a feminine self with her own life. She goes out, she buys her own clothes trying them on in the stores, she has her own boudoir closet, and apart from the pleasure of being invited on dates (although this did happen once and was a wonderful experience) does about everything a woman does. Now, very little of one "self" eneroathes visibly into the life of the other. We both use the same body and there are there- fore limits to our activities, but other than this we go our own ways. This is possible because Virginia has be- come a parrallel personality to my masculine self and provides the necessary feminine outlet so that there is no need for it in my masculine life and therefore there is to all practical purposes NO GUILT IN THE MASCULINE LIFE. This does not mean that my masculine self goes about telling all and sundry about Virginia, but it does mean that Virginia can be forgotten when it isnt her time to be present. Conversely, and this is the point of the discussion when Virginia is out it is a FEMININE person who is out, not a male in female attire shaking in his heels fearing discovery and therefore making it all the more likely. When there is no guilt assurance and self-confidance can exist when one is with others, but most important, the banishment of guilt means inner peace and relaxation. I have followed Dr. Bowman's ad- vice and bless him for giving it to me. Life has given me a hard time on occasion in the form of legal battles